Holy smokes...reading that whole step one in the 12 steps was like staring into a mirror. When I first heard about this program a few weeks ago I battled because I wanted to believe so badly that I had enough self control to conquer my compulsive eating on my own. It describes what food has become for me...a relentless tyrant and I have finally come to accept that I can not longer fight food. I give up. My whole life...every minute of every waking day my mind has been obsessed with food...I mean at times I would be eating something and instead of being present while eating it I would think of the next thing I could stuff in my face. I would eat until I was sick...eat to numb the pain of overeating...of feeling worthless...of being totally out of control and unmanageable. Over the last 48 hours, food has not been mocking me....I don;t know why yet...I have a long way to go....but I am so grateful I am on this journey.